This past weekend I had a rather rough experience. With all of my effort towards living in the positive masculine (The Warrior) I also have to face the shadow of it.
Firstly, the shadow is not negative. It’s very easy to ‘judge’ as this, which then allows us to dismiss and ignore it. Also note that judgement is a flag of resistance. I’m not saying “Embrace the Dark Side and Rule the Galaxy with me”, but it is important to look at the shadow and learn our lessons from it.
I’ve spent the past two or three weeks trying to embrace the lessons of the ‘Macho’ (from David Deida’s Model) and as a result fell into the ‘Macho’ area. Now the ‘Macho’ is the shadow to be sure, but it has valuable lessons. ‘Macho’ teaches men ‘Strength’ and ‘Leadership’ among other things. However out of balance the ‘Macho’ can be the ‘Wife Beater’. Not a very pleasant person at all.
For me, this trip through the shadow, I believe was a ‘change back move’ to restore things to where I am comfortable with them and stop the change. It scared me away, again, from the macho confirming my believe that Macho has no value. Well, Not Quite, but it definitely scared the hell out of me.
How do I take my journey through the shadow and ‘flip it up’ to the light. I know that in order to move to the ‘Warrior’ the Macho must learn Love. So I wonder what it would look like to bring love to this place?
The word that springs to mind is ‘compassion’. This does not be acquiescing or sacrificing my self for an-others good, but I don’t have to exert force or be dominant either. With compassion I’m able to be in service to my self and others.
Now I look at my journey and see where I might change it up quicker next time. When I notice my self going through there I can bring love and therefore Compassion to my self and those around me. Then I can be in service.
Walk in Peace,
Warrior Jevon:
In-Service
